Tuesday, May 25, 2010

The Last Time

I am not unhappy where I live. I miss my mom. I don't know what the big deal is with me saying that I miss my mom. I miss the place where I grew up. I love living in Washington. I love the friends that I have made here. I am just so sorry that no matter what I say, it is always misconstrued to me saying something bad about this family or this town or this ward. I LOVE MY FAMILY. I LOVE MY WARD. I LOVE MY TOWN. I leave this post up until tomorrow and then my blog will be gone for good.

Monday, May 24, 2010

Taking a break

I believe that I will be taking a bit of a break from blogging for awhile. For those of you who were offended about my last post, know that it was about ME missing my family and where I am from. If you have never lived anywhere else in your life, then it is hard to know what I am talking about when I say that the south is different than the northwest. My blog is or was a place where I could share my thoughts and feelings, as well as share some of the things that my children were doing. It has never been my intention to use my blog to offend others. So, I truly apologize for those who have taken offense to my last blog post.

Sunday, May 23, 2010


I have really been thinking the past several weeks about how much I miss my family. It has been 3 years since we moved to Washington and it just gets harder and harder to be away from them. There have been many times the past couple of months that I wish we could just move back so that I could be close to my family. It is so hard on me knowing that my mom is lucky if she sees my kids once a year. I really miss the south. I think that people there were a little nicer and just willing to do anything for you no matter what. Which, I also think is my downfall sometimes. I always try to be that person that is there for anyone no matter what and sometimes I feel like people around here think that I am some kind of crazy person because I am always checking on everyone making sure that they are all doing OK. (I hope that makes sense and if it doesn't ask me and I will try to explain a little better.) Hopefully, the kids and I will be able to go visit my parents for a couple of weeks in the next couple of months. I just wish plane tickets weren't soooo expensive. I have a feeling though, that if I end up really liking the area where my parents are living right now, it is going to be very hard for me to come home, except that Bryce will still be here waiting for us. I just keep telling myself that if it is meant to be for us to move down there, then some way some how it will happen.

This past weekend was the 5th anniversary of my becoming a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. There are many times when it feels like these past 5 years have just flown by and then there are those times where it seems like it has just drug by. This also means that mine and Bryce's 5 year anniversary is coming up in the next 10 days. Kind of funny to think that by this time in his first marriage, their marriage was already over. We joke about how we have made it and since we have lasted longer than his first marriage, then we must be doing something right!

Friday, May 21, 2010

Dutch Oven Cooking

Growing up in Florida, I have always been more of a beach girl, who doesn't want to get dirty. (I hope that makes sense.) Well, the month of May has shown me some new experiences that I have never had before. Now, Bryce grew up camping out all the time with his grandpa. I, on the other hand, have never camped out before. Unless, a motor home counts. So, a couple of weeks ago, we had our first dutch oven cooking social. I had no clue what a dutch oven was or how you cooked in a dutch oven. What a learning experience this has been! I have been scouring the internet looking for EASY dutch oven recipes that we could possibly cook and not mess up. Well, the first social was such a success that the men wanted to do another one. Seriously, you can make just about anything in a dutch oven. Boy oh boy, the food is soooo good! So, I have gone from a girl who had no clue about dutch ovens to an OK dutch oven cook. We have had so much fun hanging out with all the families in the Elder's Quorum and just learning to coook together. I think that these socials have gone over so well, that we are now going to have one at least once a month. So, if you have any good and easy recipes to share, please let me know!

Monday, May 17, 2010

I Need....

a vacation away from my kids. I would like to go stay in a hotel for a whole weekend without them or Bryce. Today is one of those days where I can't wait for them to be a little older. I sure hope that the rest of the week is a little better than today was.

Monday, May 10, 2010

The Mother's Day Gift

Here is the gift that we made for all the moms at church.

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Happy Mother's Day!

Just wanted to say Happy Mother's Day to all the wonderful moms out there in the blog world!!

"God could not be everywhere, so he made mothers."
unknown - Jewish Proverb

Thursday, May 6, 2010

For All The Moms Out There

Before I was a Mom,
I never tripped over toys
or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not
my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a Mom,
I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind
and my thoughts.
I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom,
I never held down a screaming child
so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night
watching a baby sleep.
Before I was a Mom,
I never held a sleeping baby just because
I didn't want to put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small
could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom,
I didn't know the feeling of
having my heart outside my body..
I didn't know how special it could feel
to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond
between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small
could make me feel so important and happy.
Before I was a Mom,
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night
every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth,
the joy,
the love,
the heartache,
the wonderment
or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much,
before I was a Mom.

Monday, May 3, 2010

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Mother's Day

Man, is it just me or is this year flying by? I cannot believe that in 2 days it will be May. Which means in 5 weeks Bryce and I will be married for 5 years. In 7 weeks, my baby girl will be 2!! And in just 8 short weeks, I will turn the big 3-0. Aaaaggggghhhhhh!!

So, with Mother's Day fast approaching, I was wondering what are you going to get your mother? Since, my mom lives so far away, I usually just send her flowers and a card. I would like to do something a little more special this year. So, if you have any thoughts please share. On another note, I have been "volunteered" by Bryce to help make the Mother's Day gift that is handed out to all the moms right after sacrament. Now, we could have gone the easy route and just gotten Hershey bars for all the moms, but we are doing something more creative this year. I only wish that I knew how time consuming it was going to be. Because if I had known then what I know now, we would have done the Hershey bars! Ivory and I spent over 7 hours yesterday (yes, 7) working on them and we are no where near done. The sad part is that this is my gift too. So, I am making my own gift. Hopefully, Bryce will realize how much time and effort that has gone into these and he will get me something wonderful! A girl can dream, right?


Monday, April 26, 2010

Work wife-more details

This lady is a co-worker and she calls at all times of the day. Last night she called at like 9:30. And Bryce knows when she is calling because he has caller ID. Now sometimes he doesn't answer, but 9 times out of 10 he does. I guess the lady's husband moved out and is filing for divorce and so she calls Bryce to tell him what her husband did now or whatever. I have said something to Bryce before about it and his answer is, she doesn't have anybody else to talk to. Ummm, that is not our problem. Anyways, I guess maybe I will try to talk to Bryce again about it.

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Work wife?

Is my husband the only one who has a "work wife"? I guess, I should explain. There is a lady that Bryce works with, who calls him several times a week to talk about her life and all of her problems. Of course, Bryce is too nice to say anything to her, but it is starting to tick me off. Does anyone else have to deal with this?

Saturday, April 24, 2010

I am now a Denver Broncos fan!

As some of you know, I am a huge Florida Gator fan. Of course, that means Tim Tebow too. Tebow is not only a great quarterback, but he is a phenomenal person as well. Tebow has had lots of critics saying that he would never make it in the NFL and that he wouldn't be drafted in the first round of the NFL draft. The draft analysts said that Tebow would possibly drafted in the 3rd or 4th round. Well, suprise, suprise. Tim Tebow was drafted in the 1st round of the draft. The Denver Broncos drafted Tebow as the 25th pick of the 2010 NFL draft! Tebow was drafted before Clausen and McCoy. So, to all the haters out there, give Tebow a chance to prove what a great player and person he is.


Monday, April 5, 2010


I have started this post 4 different times already and I just can't seem to get it right. With Easter being yesterday, I have thought alot about our Savior and the atonement. How grateful I am to be a member of The Church Of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. To know the plan of salvation. To know that I will have an eternal family one day. Wth all of this in mind, our family and our community lost a precious child yesterday in a tragic accident. When you don't know what to say or how to say it, but want to help so badly and yet you can't. These are the times when we need to remember the gospel and the promises that we have been given, even as hard as it is. When, really during these times all you want to do is ask why. I know that there really isn't anything I can say, except that my heart is breaking and how much I love you all. I want to bear my testimony that I know that Thomas S. Monson is a living prophet. I believe in eternal families. I am thankful for my loving Heavenly Father; for my Savior that gave his life so that I may live. I love this gospel and I am so very thankful to have this knowledge. I know that as I stay close with the Lord and walk the straight and narrow path, that eventually good will win. I say these things in the name of thy son Jesus Christ. Amen.

"Each of us will taste the bitter ashes of life, from sin and neglect to sorrow and disappointment. But the atonement of Christ can lift us up in beauty from our ashes on the wings of a sure promise of immortality and eternal life. He will thus lift us up, not only at the end of life, but in each day of our lives."
--Bruce C. Hafen, "Beauty for Ashes: The Atonement of Jesus Christ, Liahona", Apr. 1997, 39


Thursday, April 1, 2010

Is It Already April?!?!

I cannot believe that it is already April! Where has this year gone? Of course, maybe I am the only one who feels like the months have been passing me by like I am standing still. My tulips are slowly coming up. Cooper gets so excited every time we go outside. He always has to check on them and make sure they are still growing. I can't wait for them to bloom! Don't forget that today is April Fool's Day. So, be careful what you fall for!

P.S. My next post is going to be my 200th post!

Friday, March 26, 2010

Let The Spring Sports Season Begin!

Soccer started this week for Cael, Cason, and Grace. They had their first game on Tuesday. It looks like they had a lot of fun. Below are some pictures that I took at the games. Cooper was so excited to see the twins and Uncle Brent! All during the game he kept asking if he could go say hi to the twins and Uncle Brent. It was pretty cute! Oh, by the way, I have added another widget to my side bar. It is to a blog called Chubby Cheeks Thinks. The blog was just started by my friend Kim. She has great reviews, recipes, coupons, giveaways and more! Go check out her blog and leave her some love!

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Check Out My New Widget

You will notice over on the right hand side of my blog is a new widget. Pepsi currently has a contest going on called the Pepsi Refresh Project and they are giving away $250K! StopSMA, an organization dedicated to curing SMA, is in third place at the moment. So, please take a few moments, click on the widget and vote for StopSMA! They are currently in 3rd place. The money will go to research. Oh and you can vote everyday until March 31. Thanks so much for all the support for Dakin!

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Post Hysterectomy Depression?

***Disclaimer-This post is a woe is me. So, if you don't feel like reading it then don't. And if you don't have anything nice to say, then don't say anything at all! :-) *******

I am just wondering if there is a post hysterectomy depression, kind of like post partum depression. I have been in such a funk lately. It seems like all I do is cry and usually over the stupidest things. I have been trying to get out of the house more and stay busy thinking that will help get me out of this funk. But, that isn't even working. I am still having a very hard time knowing that I cannot have anymore children. It makes me feel like such a failure, especially being LDS. Don't get me wrong, I know how lucky I am to have 2 healthy, beautiful children, but it is still very hard. I see baby clothes and just get so sad that I can't buy them anymore. We have 5 people in our family right now who are pregnant and although I am so very happy for all of them, it definitely makes me sad. So, if anyone has any thoughts as to how I can deal with all this, please let me know. I just ask that you be gentle.


Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Is It Spring Yet?

The weather has been absolutely beautiful the past several days! This is most definitely one of my favorite times of year. This winter has been so mild compared to the other winters that we have lived in Washington. I don't think that the groundhog got it right for us in the Columbia Basin. If this is what another 6 weeks of winter looks like, we will take it for sure!

Friday, February 26, 2010

16 and Pregnant

I am pretty sure that I have said this on here before that I love reality tv. A while ago as I was channel surfing, I stumbled upon the show 16 and Pregnant on MTV. Now, I normally am not a fan of MTV. As I started watching the show, I couldn't help but feel so sad for these girls. Don't get me wrong, I understand that they made the choice to have sex and unprotected sex at that, but it is hard watching these girls struggle to make the right decisions when it comes to the baby. The hardest part for me is that these girls think that their boyfriends are going to be there for them and their child and then their boyfriend dumps them or cheats on them or whatever. Anyways, I just watched an episode and just felt so bad for the girl. Her boyfriend broke up with her when she told him that she was pregnant. I guess they got back together and then he broke up with her again, got back together, and the cycle just continued. Maybe it is because I am older and am not as naive as I used to be, but I want to reach into the tv and tell these girls to kick these guys to the curb and focus on their child and their future.

So, I guess my question for you is, do you think that this show is helpful or hurtful for teen girls? I read an article today about it and I am kind of split on how I feel about it. I think that teenagers need to see the struggles that these girls go through, not just with their boyfriends, but with school, their parents, and their friends. On the other hand, a lot of these girls think that having a baby is just going to be like dressing up a doll. So, what do you think?

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Monday, February 22, 2010

Our Weekend In Tacoma

Bryce and I went over to Tacoma this past weekend for the state wrestling tournament. Since, this was my first time at state, I really had no clue what it was all about. Friday afternoon, we checked into the hotel and went straight to the Tacoma Dome. We then proceeded to sit there for the next 6 hours watching wrestling. Yes, I said 6 hours! The worst part was that I forgot to bring my book with me and I don't have a smart phone, so I sat there completely bored. Don't get me wrong, there were some good matches, but I didn't know any of the kids wrestling. So, Saturday morning started at 7 a.m. Way to early to be up on a Saturday morning! Off we went to the dome for another long day of wrestling. This time however, I brought a book. The Warden boys and girls did great! Actually, the girls placed the highest they ever have at state this year. After we ate lunch, I stayed back at the hotel and rested and cried because I missed my kids. As much as they drive me CRAZY, I really do miss being away from them longer than a day. Anyways, the Warden boys placed 3rd overall and the girls tied for 6th. The best part of the whole weekend was when we stopped at North Bend and got the kids some clothes. Carter had some super cute dresses! We ended up spending way too much money, but it was totally worth it. The kids had a great time with Kylee and the rest of the Buck's. I cannot thank them enough for watching the kids for us. I think the kids were even a little glad to see us.

Update on Cooper

Thursday afternoon, I decided to take Cooper back to the doctor. I am very gald that I did now. Come to find out, his infection came back as strep. So, the medicine that they had him on (Septra) doesn't work on strep. So, Dr. Bond put him on Amoxicillin. And holy cow, Cooper took it! I was so excited!! Today, I ended up taking him back because it still didn't look good. Cooper got his antibiotic strength upped and some Bactriban to put on his finger. Now, I am worried because the Amoxicillin is now orange, not pink. So, I hope that he will take his medicine. Either that or I am going to ask them to just cut his finger off!!

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Update on Cooper

Well, the infection is not MRSA or staph. So, that is great news! But, he still isn't taking his medicine. Bryce said that we should just soak his finger like we are supposed to and that should take care of the infection. I sure hope so because I don't like holding him down and forcing him to take it.

Monday, February 15, 2010


I have come to realize that our kids are going to pick up all of our bad habits. They both bite their nails (I do that) and Cooper chews on his fingers (Bryce does that). So, on Thursday I noticed that his pointer finger on his left hand looked infected right below the nail. I tried to put some neosporin and a bandaid on it, but Cooper wouldn't leave it on. By Friday, it was looking mighty bad. So, I took him to the walk in clinic and yep, it was definitely infected. The doctor told me to soak it 3 times a day in warm water and Epsom salts. He also prescribed an antibiotic. I really thought that the soaks wouldn't be so bad. You stick your finger in water for a few minutes. What's the big deal? I knew we were going to have some issues with Cooper taking the antibiotic.

We get home and I try to get him to do the soak. Oh my goodness! It was horrible! I eventually got him to soak his finger for a few minutes. Now, the really hard part was at hand. Cooper refused to take his medicine. Did I mention that he is supposed to take it 3 times a day, as well?? Well, I have tried just about everything to get him to take it. I have put it in soooo many different things (from food to drinks) and he always says it tastes funny. No, he doesn't see me put it in there. So, I held him down and tried to force him to take it. Yeah, that didn't go so well. Brye figured he could hold him down and get him to take it. Yeah, not so much. So, Sunday morning, before church, I held him down while Bryce stuck a syringe in his mouth and gave him his medicine that way. He still didn't get the whole amount that he was supposed to, but I guess it is better than nothing. So, today, I again called the walk in clinic and spoke with a nurse. I asked her if there was anyway that we could get the antibiotic changed and she said no. That the medicine that they have him on is in case the wound culture comes back as MRSA and there is no other substitution. She said, "You just have to make him take it." I wanted to ask her did she have kids because it is easier said than done. Hopefully, the wound culture came back today and hopefully it is not MRSA that way we can get it changed. I know that I am about to sound like my mom here (as well as many other moms), but I really hope that Cooper has a child just like him!!

Friday night, I was able to go out with some friends and go see the new movie Valentine's Day. Oh my gosh! It was so good. I laughed and I cried. It was some much needed time away from the kids, even if it was for just a couple of hours. I also thought I would share a picture of the beautiful tulips that Bryce got me for Valentine's day. Even if it was a couple of days early!

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

What Makes You Feel Pretty?

Today, I got my hair cut and colored. It had been 6 months since I had last gotten my hair trimmed. So, it was definitely time! I absolutely love it! I only got 3 inches cut off and my layers re-worked, but man, I can tell a difference! I actually feel pretty for once and I think it makes me look a little younger, which I really needed right now as the dreaded 3-0 is in a couple of months. Anyways, so what makes you feel pretty?

Monday, February 8, 2010

Who Dat?

Well, the Saints won! It was an awesome game! There were a couple of funny commercials, with the doritos and the casual Friday being my favorite. Now, the chant for the Saints is the whole who dat song. I found that it originally came from When The Saints Go Marching In that was sung by Aaron Neville in 1983. I found this video on Youtube and thought it was pretty good. So, enjoy and tell me what your favorite commercial was!


Saturday, February 6, 2010

Super Bowl XLIV


Tomorrow is the last day for professional football. Until, next fall that is. If I had to pick who would win, I would say the Colts. I have been a Colts fan for awhile. I love the Manning brothers!! But, I have always follwed Peyton since he was a quarterback for the University of Tennessee. So, ideally, I would love for the Colts to win. However, it is always nice for the underdog to pull out a win too. And heavens knows, the Saints deserve it! Maybe we will all be singing Who dat? tomorrow. In case you don't know what it is, here are the words: "Who dat? Who dat? Who dat say dey gonna beat dem Saints? Who dat? Who dat?" Either way it will be a great game! Oh, and if the game sucks, at least the commercials should be good!

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

SMA & Dakin

**I know this post is long, but I would love it if you read through it all. This post is about a very special little boy who needs your help.***

For many women (and some men), blogging is a way to vent, share their ideas, document their lives, and sometimes even find lifelong friends. One of the women that I have come to know is Devon. She is the most amazing woman! But, more than that she has the most beautiful little boy named Dakin. Dakin has SMARD, Spinal Muscular Atrophy with Respiratory Distress (SMARD) is part of the Spinal Muscular Atrophy family of disease. Dakin was 3 months old when he was diagnosed with SMARD. This is the description of Dakin's blog, come along as we chronicle the adventures of a small super hero who has Spinal Muscular Atrophy with Respiratory Distress. We know you will feel the joy that he radiates and find hope in his smile. The first thing that caught my attention when I first started reading about Dakin's journey, was his smile. Seriously, he looks like he is one of the happiest kids on earth!

One of the great things about the blogging world is the inspiration and courage that you get from others. When I think about all that Devon does on a day to day basis, it just amazes me. Here I am complaining about Cooper being a stinker, when I should really be focusing on how lucky I am to have a healthy child. From Devon's blog, I have read about so many other families and their stories about how they live their lives with SMA. The SMA community is a very tight nit community. The parents are there for each other through the good times and the bad. And sometimes it seems like there are more bad times than good. It breaks my heart reading about the families who have lost a child to this disease and the struggles that they face daily. These are some of the strongest people you will ever meet.

I guess the reason why I am sharing Devon and Dakin's story is to help spread the word about SMA. SMA is the number 1 genetic killer of children under the age of 2. There is currently no treatment and no cure, but the National Institutes of Health (NIH) and the National Institute of Neurological Disorders and Stroke (NINDS) selected SMA as the disease closest to treatment of more than 600 neurological disorders.Researchers estimate that we are as close as only a few years away from finding a treatment and/or cure.Because scientists know so much about SMA, SMA is considered a "model" disease with direct impact on research into many other diseases potentially benefiting millions of people. Please take 30 seconds and sign the Petition to Cure SMA. This landmark legislation will help SMA afflicted kids as well as a host of other neuromuscular diseases, and perhaps Dakin's as well. Please help us and pass the word along!! www.petitiontocuresma.com

I think I could go on and on about Devon, Dakin, and the many other families out there that are struggling to find a cure for this disease. Please visit Devon and Dakin at their blog http://ventsuperman.blogspot.com/. Lastly, I would like to leave this poem with you that I found on the internet. It was written by Kim Ambrose. Devon, this is for you.

Little boy, my little man, light and love of my life,
So precious, so gentle, you are my shelter, my shining light.
You are totally dependant on me, on your own there is nothing you can do,
But little man, this may surprise you, for I am just as dependant on you.

We seem to make each other stronger, just by us being together,
Sometimes when I hold you, I wish that moment would last forever.
At times when things get me down, I want to just sit with you for a while,
So you can speak to me with your eyes, and run to me with your smile.

Moments we've spent together are some of the happiest I've ever had,
I want to laugh with you when you are happy, and cry with you when you are sad.
I want us to lean on each other as we continue to grow together,
Because the love I have for you, little man, is a love that will last forever.

Some people may see a mountain and think it's much too high to climb,
But to you and I it's simply another hill, it's just a bit bigger this time.
We have some challenges ahead of us, but together these challenges we'll
get through,
And I thank God everyday for this special gift, this special gift that is you.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Happy Groundhog's Day!

Well, Punxsutawney Phil saw his shadow today, which means six more weeks of winter. Now for those of us living in Washington, this has been a very mild winter this year. So, I guess six more weeks of winter won't be too bad. Since I grew up in the south, we always had Gen. Beauregard Lee to tell us whether will have an early spring or six more weeks of winter. Today, Gen. Beauregard Lee did not see his shadow. So, the south should be having an early spring this year, which I know they will love since it has been colder than normal this winter. Hope everyone has a great Groundhog's Day!

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Might Be Going Private

So, over the last week, I have recieved some comments on my blog that were a little off. I don't want to make my blog private because there are many different people that read my blog. Good people, kind people. However, if I continue to get weird comments, it will be in my family's best interest to go private. So, I just wanted to give everyone a head's up.

Monday, January 25, 2010

The Trying Three's

It is a common misconception, in my opinion anyway, that most moms think that the 2's are going to be the most challenging. The longer I have been a mom, the more I have heard the 2's are nothing compared to the 3's. I have also heard that the 4's are pretty trying as well. In retrospect, Cooper's 2's really weren't that bad. But, man these 3's are most definitely trying. And he has only been 3 for 2 weeks! I never knew that being 3 meant lots of whining, crying, TANTRUMS, and basically acting like a baby all over again. I hope that this "phase" doesn't last too long. Because if it does, you can find me at the Grant Co. Mental Health hospital!

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Coins For Comment

One of the hair blogs that I follow knows a couple who are in the process of adopting from Haiti. They have been trying to adopt these children for 2 years now. Of course, since the earthquake everything is just chaos. So, anyways, the lady that does the blog is donating 10 cents for every comment left on this particular post. Please head over there and check it out and leave a comment! I am having a hard time putting the link to the blog in my post. So, here is the blog address: http://babesinhairland.blogspot.com. If anyone knows how to put a link in my post, please let me know!!! And thanks for helping out this couple!

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

A New Beginning

Well, last night was Bryce's last night at the hospital. He starts his new job tomorrow at the home health agency. I just really hope that he likes it. Heavens knows, I didn't like doing home health! Hopefully, this will be a positive change for us and our family.

On another note, I have a very hard time understanding why people hold grudges or lie when it is something that they initiated. Does that make sense? Kind of like when a man cheats on his wife and decides that he doesn't want to be married anymore. So, the wife moves on and finds someone else (now they were in the process of getting their divorce) who loves her, cares for her, and he feels the same. So, why is it that the husband who cheated and didn't want to be married anymore turns it all around to where it is the wife's fault? Maybe I will never understand it, but wouldn't telling the truth, as hard as it is, be the best thing to do? Does trashing someone to mutual friends make you happier, cooler, or the better person? Sorry, I guess I am just trying to understand the way some people think and how they can live with themselves for the things they have done and said.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Some thoughts

I am going to start this post letting everyone know that I am going to be talking about my thoughts and feelings about some things. So, if you don't really want to know, skip this post and just look at some new pics of the kids. They are pretty cute if you ask me!

I have been trying very hard to be OK about not being able to have anymore kids. But, in all honesty, it still hurts, as bad as when we were told we needed to be done having children. Although, I am so very thankful for Cooper and Sara, there are still times when I feel like our life just isn't complete. I love holding babies and snuggling with them. It just feels right. Even though, I am so very happy for everyone that is pregnant and just had a baby. I love seeing all the new little spirits that have been brought into our family. I guess I am just feeling a little down about everything. I have hoped that over time, that I would start feeling a little better about things. Maybe I just need to give myself a little more time. So, if I seem a little sad sometimes, know that it is not anything that you have done. Or, if I ask to hold your baby, just know that I am trying to move on and anywhere I can get some baby lovin', I am going to try. So, y'all just keep poppin out babies for me to love and dote on!